The steam from the shower made my head pound. At least, I finished shampooing my short crop before a wave of nausea hit me. My arms and legs turned to the consistency of noodles as I found the edge of my bathtub. I started shaking and slid to the cold tile floor.
Lord, what’s happening?
My chest burned. The blood vessels in my brain felt like volcano lava. Can I push myself up to the toilet bowl before I vomit?
I prayed, “God, I’m lying here naked before you. Am I having a heart attack? What should I do? Please help me.”
As the bile rose in my throat, I was lifted to the toilet. The vomit landed inside the bowl. Praise the Lord!
The Lord chose not to take my life that day. I clung to the floor for another hour until help arrived. My prayers centered on the survival of my soul with an unpredictable disease like Multiple Sclerosis. I recalled a recent Bible study passage.
Ephesians 2:8-10 (NIV) “…for we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus
to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.”
My faith that God prepared work for me, knowing my medical future, drives my spirit. Writing, providing advice, and encouraging people gives me a reason to painfully rise from my bed each morning. This thankless task brings me hope.
Hope on earth is priceless to anyone uniquely-abled. Otherwise, I sit around longing for heaven or selfish works that do not have a place in God’s future for me.
My strength comes from the Lord. He guides me toward caregivers or people who are struggling with limitations. I believe I can help bridge the gaps in communication that invariably occur in families when someone has been diagnosed with a chronic disability or disease.
Can you relate with my point of view? Or, do you read my blog to understand a loved-one’s perspective?
Posted on February 28, 2014, in Caregivers, Education for Parents and tagged Cerebral Palsy, Education; Cognitive Impairments; Alzheimer's disease, Learning Disabilities, Multiple Sclerosis, Parkinsons Disease, Stroke. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.